I've been part of the blogging community for around six years now and I'll be the first to admit that this little corner of the internet is just a little strange. 

Whilst I'm incredibly part to be a part of it, it's also a little bit of a wild ride. 

SIX years of photography, writing, emails, content planning, twitter and Instagram scheduling and having the opportunity to work with friends, companies and simply creating my own little space online.

And it's not the first time I've mentioned how much I struggled to stay motivated. Hell, in the last two years I have taken lengthy breaks, forced myself into blogging days and oh, I've definitely, one hundred percent cried over my blog. 

I probably should've at time just admitted defeat, known that enough was enough and just call it all quits but there's something about this creative space that I can't quite let go of. Since 2017 I've been trying at every possible moment to improve my blogging, my writing style, my photography and everything in between. I think over time all the pressure I've put on myself has in fact just lowered that determination I had when I originally started 'See The Stars' in 2013. 

Something that has stuck with me for a while has been my lack of creativity, in fact about a year ago I wrote this post all about how I wanted to find it all again. Last year I was in the middle of 'rediscovering myself' - moving away and back home again, so many job rejections and I just began to feel like I was loosing all the little bits that made me who I was and one of those things was my creativity. Actually, it still is. 

Thankfully I'm completely content with living back with my parents, it's good to be in a health living environment, plus with J living with me too - it's perfect.

I'm lucky to spend so much of my time with creative people, my friends, my family and my boyfriend; everyone in their own way has something that they're passionate about and their own ways of expressing some sort of art - it's amazing but honestly, I'm very intimated, jealous and find comparisons all the damn time. And I guess that's one of my biggest downfalls I'm experiencing when it comes to my bloggers block because realistically it's still that creative block that I'm experiencing. 

What I'm trying to say is, I need to stop comparing myself, remember what I'm capable of and work with that. I have my days when I can't even open my laptop or pick up my camera because I know I can't do anything nearly as impressive as the other bloggers online and there's days when I remind myself to do all this for me - I've started using my iPhone for photos and just living in the moment of my content rather than having 'too' many plans with it and oh my life, this is such a weight off my shoulders. 

I'm trying to find time to write or photograph at least once a week and trying not to put too much pressure on myself when real life gets in the way. 

I guess, what I'm really trying to say is I'm not letting my 'block' completely effect me like it did two years ago. 

I'm going to start working on new lil bits each week; focusing on the bits that excite me and not forcing things when I know they aren't possible. These last few weeks I've really been keen on sharing my TV and film posts; so I'm taking more time to watch more movies at the cinema or on Netflix (so keep an eye out for those posts coming soon) but I'm starting to rediscover my interest in scrapbooking again and can't wait to find time to sit down and work on a few pages of my project life album, again a future potential post. 

Oh I just love feeling all the excitement for trying these things again, yippee! 

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